Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Tuesday, April 3

Update: There are few things in the world that tug our heartstrings more than seeing a daddy hold his son, lovingly. When we arrived at the NICU tonight, we were greeted with that wonderful sight. It is adorable how intently Baby Collin watches his dad's face and listens when his dad speaks. It's a little different than how he is with his mommy...Collin's look and demeanor show that there is nowhere he'd rather be than snuggled in him mommy's arms when she holds him and he wears a look of pure adoration when she talks to him. We could sit and watch our little family for hours it seems. Tonight we captured several of Collin's plethora of facial expressions. Enjoy!
The happy family
Watching Dad talk
Full on smile for Dad
Listening to a message from Nana V
Good night!


We have received so many private emails and phone calls asking questions about things written in the entries or inquiring about more detail, that we set up a special email account for you to use to contact us about the blog: collinshope@mail.com. Feel free to email us anytime!

Collin is still doing well. The doctors gave him a barium enema today and the preliminary results showed everything as it should be in his lower (or large) intestines. Tomorrow (Wednesday), they will do the procedure again, but instead of an enema, they will send the barium through his g-tube. This will allow them to view his small intestines on an x-ray. The surgeon had warned us previously that babies with gastroschisis always have swollen intestines, Collin's have been just a little more swollen than usual which is probably what has caused him to throw up. We think it's good that the doctors continue to be cautious with his care, and hold off on the feedings for a day or two.

His parents started the "ball rolling" as far as applying for the transplant program at UNMC. Once they receive his medical records, a board of surgeons will look them over and make a determination of whether they can accommodate Collin's needs, whether they currently have space for him and some other criteria including references from his current doctors. We pray that Collin's application is expedited and accepted. (Collin may NOT need a small intestine or liver transplant, however they are being proactive in seeking a space at the transplant center in the event he does need one.)

The next step for Collin's parents will be to have Collin's dad's military orders changed to the Offutt Air Force Base in Omaha, Nebraska. This will be achieved through what is called a "Humanitarian PCS" (permanent change of station). After Collin's dad applies for the humanitarian pcs, which is given due to medical hardships of family members of service people, a board of commanders will decide whether or not to grant it. If it is granted, the application moves up to a human resource level in San Antonio, TX. If (and when) they approve it, and if Offutt Air Force Base has room for Collin's dad in their Firefighter ranks, he will be transferred very quickly. The Air Force will pack up and move his parents to their new home.

This is very overwhelming from the perspective of someone on the outside looking in, but Collin's Mom and Dad just take each moment day by day and each step one at a time. We are proud and inspired by their strength and resolve. We(all of their parents)are lucky to have such a wonderful and capable son and daughter; Collin is lucky to have such dedicated and loving parents.

An interesting aside is that Collin's Grandpa N received a humanitarian pcs about 9 years ago and was transferred from Sheppard AFB in Texas to Offutt. (So we know it CAN be done!)

We have said, from before we were blessed with Collin's birth, that we are so grateful that Collin's Dad is in the military. The medical coverage for the heroes who defend our nation is wonderful and the paid leave that military "new dads" get is generous. Collin's care in the NICU is about $3000 a day (and that doesn't include visits from specialists like the wound specialist, the pediatric orthopedist or the pediatric surgeons who visit every day.) That is all covered by the military medical insurance, thank goodness!

Later this evening we'll visit with Collin and his parents and promise to bring you some more photos. We are so blessed and gifted in so many ways and have so much for which to be thankful; your prayers and words of encouragement carry ALL of us when things get tough or scary and we are so grateful for them. THANK YOU!

33 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so pleased to hear that he is still dong well! I will pray that everything works out with the transfer. I know us in the military complain a lot about Tricare but it's times like this that we really realize just how important it is. I would have been paying my sons medical bills until he was in college if it wasn't for Tricare. I will pray that everyone expedites the procedures to get everyone moved!! I can't wait to see the pictures later!

Anonymous said...

The love I have for my three children can not truly be explained by wonderful adjectives or paraphrases, it really can't be captured. Then one tries to grasp the feelings of becoming a Nana. It has opened up a world I never knew exist. The poem that follows is beautiful. I cannot find the author but appreciate their words. I know this will be a page in Collin's scrapbook. God Bless and give you strength!

Love you,
Nana V

Children Are...

Amazing, acknowledge them.
Believable, trust them.
Childlike, allow them.
Divine, honor them.
Energetic, nourish them.
Fallible, embrace them.
Gifts, treasure them.
Here Now, be with them.
Innocent, delight with them.
Joyful, appreciate them.
Kindhearted, learn from them.
Lovable, cherish them.
Magical, fly with them.
Noble, esteem them.
Open minded, respect them.
Precious, value them.
Questioners, encourage them.
Resourceful, support them.
Spontaneous, enjoy them.
Talented, believe in them.
Unique, affirm them.
Vulnerable, protect them.
Whole, recognize them.
Xtra-special, celebrate them.
Yearning, notice them.
Zany, laugh with them.

Anonymous said...

Footprints in the Sand



One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”

The Lord replied,
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you.”


Mary Stevenson

May all of you be carried to your next step...Collin and his parents...may it be smooth and easy for everyone and may you all feel the Hand of the Father holding you and supporting you.

Anonymous said...

Dear Katie,

I love this poem and yet I did not think of it once during these past few weeks. Thank you! These words show perfection in trust and faith. Thanks again for the reminder.

Nana V

Anonymous said...

Collin

Early you were born
That is a fact
Delight you brought
There was no lack

Hair was a plenty
Light shade of hue
Big and bright eyes
Sapphire and blue

Daddy gave a name
Almost “king” it was
Mom sighed in protest
And then gave a big fuss

His name is now Collin
Our pride and joy
Please God Bless the trio
Strength to the boy

Pleasant Dreams Little One and Good Night!

Love,
Nana V

the family, with love said...

Great poems, guys! I love the "Footprints" one, too. I hope Nana V didn't leave before seeing the update and photos of tonight...Erin looks so much like her mom in the first photo!

the family, with love said...

Nana V and Erin, I hope you both love this one as much as I did! My dear friend Deanna sent it to me today...I think it's perfect in regards to Erin's mom's comment @ 6:38 pm.

Before I was a Mom


Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom I had never been puked on.

Pooped on

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth

The joy

The love

The heartache

The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.



And before I was a Grandma, I didn't know that all those "Mom" feelings more than doubled when you see that little bundle being held by "your baby".

Andrea said...

Wow, I just love the new pictures. His little eyes are so intent on the object of his gaze. Funny how babies can seem so wise and yet are so fragile at the same time.

It's wonderful to know that of all that's going on with Matt & Erin, at least medical bills are not a source of worry. This gives me great pride in our military system. I hope the pcs goes through without delay and all the legwork goes smoothly regarding a potential move to Omaha.

I have to comment on the beautiful, poetic sentiments expressed here tonight. I should know better than to sit down here without a box of kleenex!

I hope that Collin has a good night and his "feeds" resume with no incident tomorrow.

Anonymous said...

Oh my, I am bursting at the seams with joy! The pictures are wonderful, fabulous, and beyond beautiful. It gives us such pleasure and a real sense of being closer to see pictures so immediately.

Lora I received your email and have been waiting, no so patiently, for the download...haha!

The family photo is perfect! However, I got to admit...the photo with Collin and his eyes wide open made me laugh out loud and then cry.

Thank you, thank you, thank you! Now, if I could just log off and get some sleep!

God Bless and Good Night
Nana V

the family, with love said...

Nana V, I am glad you enjoyed the pictures and I apologize for taking so darn long! ha ha

The picture with his eyes wide open was taken (I believe) when I was giving him YOUR message.

Good night!

Anonymous said...

Dearest Beautiful Baby Collin,

OMG ~ the photos of you are so gorgeous! You are truly one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen!
(I'd actually say THE most beautiful.... but one of my own 3 beautiful, but grown, baby boys reads here and well... you get the picture?)

I love the different expressions you make and your smile just makes my heart melt! I could stare at you all day.

Your short life so far has been just amazing. Your progress is so interesting to read about and your growth is just so awesome to watch, thru the photos.

Sweet Dreams, Beautiful Boy.

Deanna
xoxox

P.S. The poem, "Before I Was A Mother" was sent to me today by my older sister, who is also a loving Grandmother. She's totally in love with her own 3 Beautiful Grand-Baby-Boys. I knew Lora would love it, and identify with it, also.

the family, with love said...

Just popped in to gaze at the pictures again...the picture of Collin with his wide eyes is sooo adorable. You can just see the wonder and innocence in his face. What a precious little angel!

Everyone, have a great day!

the family, with love said...

I thought that picture was so cute that I've added it to the front page so it'll be the first thing you see when you log onto his blog. Ok, enough gushing! lol

:)

Anonymous said...

Lovely pictures! Erin and Matt you are looking great! Good luck with your plans - any support you need, just let Granma N know and we will round up our internet friends and hitch our way over to Tucson!

Collin is absolutely handsome! Thanks for sharing such wonderful pictures of Collin - it brings it to life for us far away.

Hugs,

Marsha

Anonymous said...

What a little kewpie doll! I know I keep saying this but I'm so struck with how much he resembles his Mom...sorry to be obsessing but it's just so remarkable! I love his cute little lips...awwwwww.....

Mom and Dad are lookin great too. :)

Katie (for some reason it's not taking my post as myself)

Anonymous said...

I think Collin has his dad's hairline. (Sorry Collin)

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Anonymous said...

During this most Holy season, may God's healing hand touch your son. Praying for an Easter miracle!

Anonymous said...

Matt and Erin,

To see that beautiful face and those incredible eyes gazing calmly into your own eyes gives my heart such a flutter!!!

Since I saw his first picture, I fell absolutely in love with Collin. I love all the pictures you continue to post. It gives us such joy to see him and all his expressions. I can't believe how much my special neice has grown into such a beautiful young woman.

Dan, Drew, and Corinne and I pray that you will find not only comfort and strength, but also a richer relationship witht the Lord who will sustain you and your precious Collin through the times ahead.

Thank you for keeping us updated with how we can continue to pray for you.

With so much love and admiration,
Aunt Joanie

Anonymous said...

Dear Matt, Erin and Collin,

Papa Jerry and I are praying for you and thinking about your beautiful family every minute.

If anyone there gets a chance let us know if you can email us some pictures so we can print them and show them off to everyone we know.

Lots of love,
Great G'ma Mona

Anonymous said...

We just want y'all to know that we think of and pray for each of you every day! We just love the updates and pictures..everyone looks wonderful!

Love,
Dan and Kristen Mingo

the family, with love said...

One of my dear friends informed me that her niece had a baby daughter born today. The baby's name? "Erin Hope". I thought that was a sweet name, but also a reminder to us of the strength of our faith, hope and love.

the family, with love said...

If anyone wants to order any of the photos they have seen on the blog, I can email you a link to Collin's account at "shutterfly". You can choose your pictures and the sizes and Shutterfly will print and mail them to you for a reasonable price.

Just send me a request to: collinshope@mail.com


Thank you! Lora (Erin's stepmom)

Anonymous said...

Hey Matt and Erin, as if you havent been told a million times but your child is amazing. I know it runs in the family haha. Hey I got another quote for you all...
I heard this the other day and although short, it captures it all. "A hard beginning maketh a good ending." Ive heard references to this my whole life and its true. This is just the beginning... We are keeping Collin Matthew in our prayers.

Love Ryan AKA "The Goddfather"

the family, with love said...

Ryan, aka THE GODFATHER, you never cease to amaze us! Love your inspirational quotes. Hope your Godson has an ounce of your determination and drive...it will serve him well. Love you!

Anonymous said...

Matt & Erin

This has been a tiresome day…but you have persevered! Your commitment displayed for one another is proven daily. That commitment overflows to your son in the form of love, compassion, and attentiveness.

I just read “The Godfather’s” message. Collin is very fortunate to have such a great person in his life. “Ry” has shown true dedication and enthusiasm in attaining his goals. He is a good role model for Collin!

Do not hesitate to call anytime…remember…we here in ND never sleep!

I love you both!!!
Mom

Anonymous said...

Dear Baby Collin,

I miss you so much and love you greatly.
Have a restful night and pleasant dreams.
God Bless You and Give You Strength!

Love you,
Nana V

Anonymous said...

Collin's hair looks EXACTLY like Matt's hair - do they have the same barber? LOL

Can't say enough about the pictures. Hope all went well today.

Marsha

Anonymous said...

Erin and Matt and Collin, everyone talks about you constantly and we all love you! I can't wait to meet Matty and Collin. You look so happy and beautiful, I really miss your smile and they way you always made me laugh. Your mom misses you so much too, call her more! Come home soon!

Anonymous said...

You all are brutal about my hairline! Collin and I think it is a masculine style that makes us look strong and stern, but approachable at the same time. Erin always wants to put a hat on his head and he (and I) hate it. We are proud of our genetically altered look and do not want to hide its natural beauty. Don't be jealous, be happy.

Anonymous said...

Ha ha...Matt you are hilarious! Typical guy defending his hairline...sounds like Bud. Just a thought, should we start calling it "lack of hairline"?

Nana V

the family, with love said...

We (finally) have a new entry! Woo hoo! (Just in the nick of time, Matt...hopefully everyone will forget about your lack of hairline.)

Wills family said...

Thank you for creating the web site for Baby Collin.We check on him everyday.This is Matt's Aunt Rose and His Grandma Wills from Ohio. you truely have the gift of writing we feel we are right there.We send our prayers daily
grandma wills send tons of rosaries for the family God Bless